Alicia White

At the Cliffs of Abandonment Alicia White

After the suicide death of our daughter, Hope, my heart became a battlefield between finding answers that can put all the pieces back together again and peace and courage that enables me to forgive myself, and even God, and move forward being okay with leaving the shattered pieces right where they are and embracing the new life canvas our heavenly Father has placed in front of me. This is my journey at the altar of abadonment. A place of death, loss, hopelessness. A place of wrestling with who the Father truly is and who I am in Him. A place of courage to embrace the cup the Father has allowed for me. But none the less, a place of transformation, where the Father's love and ways invites me beyond the veil of suffering into the holy place of abandonment. An altar of suffering that beckons me to surrender to the Father's ways until the place I lay becomes a place of holy worship. An altar of suffering transformed into an altar of abandonment; a place of resurrection and life.