Keely Watling

I Can't Be Depressed; I Was Laughing With My Family Last Night! Keely Watling

"Now I can get emotional, a film, an advert, a book, or watching my children; but man, I was crying and not knowing why. I was dehydrated. I felt sorry for my husband. I just kept thinking, 'The poor guy had to work and then come home to this crazy mess'. I stopped wearing mascara for a while as I looked like Marilyn Manson some days upon his return. He really didn't need that as a welcome. In fact, it's just come to me as I write this.. there's waterproof mascara!!! Anyways, it was getting to a point where I was exhausted from the day, and then on top of that, exhausted from whatever was going on inside me. I was tired on all fronts."Now I don't know how many people with depression have uttered this phrase, but it definitely came out of my mouth. Depressed people don't laugh, they might try and crack a smile, but laughing, no that's not part of it...... Is it? I wrote this book to explain how I eventually recognised and took steps in dealing with my depression and anxiety. To show it's not just all lows, and to give an insight into depression, allowing people to help others or themselves take that first step on the path back. I'm not a scientist or have an MD in neuroscience, this is purely from my perspective and how i came to terms with and accepted the word Depression.