Carla Vendries

Blood of a Paper Doll: Poetry Carla Vendries

Through this account of one girl's battle with depression and euphoria, she learns the key to not allowing the self to be wrapped up by the machine is to crush certain ideologies and conventions that say behavior needs to be labeled. Self indulgence creates an emotional life perpetually spent inside an isolated dark wave, but in this book she ultimately learns slowly, but gradually that every thing that nourishes you, also destroys you. These disturbingly pretty poems are about undergoing an emotional state of metamorphosis and the acceptance of them. Through a psyche fragmented by circumstances beyond control, traveling on an edgeless encompassing path eventually leads to a beautiful spiritual catharsis. The extremities of life succumb to a deep exploration of sex, love, separation, and death. Surrendering to intimacy and relationships serves as the band-aid to the wound that could not yield from bleeding. It is human nature for self-destruction to take hold of the world, nevertheless with it also follows the beginning of an age of paradisiacal happiness beyond belief. By crushing the machine causing unnecessary poignancy in the heart. It is how renouncing certain dangers in reality she transcends from one state to a more mysterious one. In the end, strength and courage are given birth to and it endures inside a woman who still feels her warm blood flowing through what appeared seemingly as a tailored cut out of a non-resonant paper doll inside an anechoic mental chamber. Orotund tones in grandiloquent rise espouse the stygian collapse of the bloody paper doll. The obstacle staircase of "liberal" poems mirrors society outside the walls.